Just reflections, no excitement.

I’ve been here just over 6 weeks and have exactly 4 months left of my stay here. After the first 3 weeks I felt sick of Colombia, but mostly because of some frustrating circumstances. It’s weird, when I was in Mexico, by this time all I wanted to do was go home. This is not to say that I don’t miss everyone at home, because I desperately do, but I don’t feel the same level of homesickness as I did while I was in MX. I don’t know what it is. Perhaps moving to Atlanta last year helped me develop the coping mechanism I needed to have a better experience here? In the next couple of weeks, I will be working with Roberto to develop a proposal for a Fulbright Fellowship that would allow me to come back here for a full year. The crazy thing is that I’m not 100% gung-ho about coming back, yet I feel that I at least need to go through the process and see if I can get it. If I didn’t apply when I had the opportunity and the connection I feel like I would regret it. Colombia is great, but as of now there’s no risk in me NOT returning to the US. I just keep wondering what the impact on my life would be if I came back here for a year…I guess I’ll just have to wait and see. Roberto is great and I trust that if I had the opportunity to work with him, we could achieve wonderful things in the year I was here.

I keep feeling like I’m going deeper into the rabbit hole, or better yet, my life is a rabbit hole.